Alhamdulillah, harini dah ceria sikit, semalam paper Chemical Process Control, paper agak susah, muka dah pucat2 dah habis exam, ada pula yang menambah duka di hati...
"Awak semua ni ada masalah attitude! Tak berdisiplin! Pelajar dari Diploma FKK memang selalu bermasalah, semua ada attitude problem! Memang tahu dah"
Ayat ni, sampai lepas Subuh tadi melekat dalam kepala. Habis down la motivation, dah lah paper susah, kena label terus macam tu, memang terus tak ada mood nak study for next paper. So, ramai among us yang decide untuk have a break yesterday and sambung study harini. Ibaratnya, you baru lepas jatuh tangga bergolek-golek, you dah berhenti bergolek, kawan you tgok, then marah you, "haaaa nilah kau! cuai je memanjang! memang dah kau ni!".
I don't know about you, but personally, I think labelling people like that is never a good thing to do, not accurate anyway. The reason dia cakap macam tu... nak tahu sebab apa? Sebab bila bagi balik kertas jawapan tak say thank you & sebab ada yang masuk exam lambat, ohh yea, sebab habis exam macam ada yang bercakap-cakap, and.... masa nak kutip kertas jawapan tu ada yang still terkial-kial susun and nak ikat paper.
Tak rasa macam petty reasons ke? Baru first time jumpa, dah label macam-macam, alahai. Siap boleh merungut lagi..."Dahlah kena jaga peperiksaan, kena teman pergi toilet lagi".. part ni jadi confuse la jugak. Nampak la macam dia rasa terbeban kena jaga exam first day, mungkin sebab tu kot dia emosi semacam habis exam tu? Atau dia bengang ramai sangat pergi toilet and kitorang exam level 13 but kena bawa toilet level 12.
Little did she know, orang yang datang exam lambat semalam tak pernah pun lambat datang kelas. She might have a problem, but you didn't care, you sarcastically scold her... tanyalah dulu. The same person had problem arranging her papers after the exam, but what you did? You stand beside her, scold non-stop & tell her you thought of hitting her, making her more panic. She couldn't even breathe properly 5 minutes after sitting on her chair. The least that you could do was to calm her down, tipu tak nampak dia panik, muka dia pucat kot masa tu.
About saying thank you when handing out the paper. I didn't say thank you but I smiled, I see some of my classmates didn't say thank you but they nod, and ada je yang say thank you. Fine, we're sorry that we didn't SAY thank you. We thought that you would understand that those gestures were polite enough especially after a very hard exam. Didn't know it wasn't enough. We'll say thank you next time, really sorry.
Even if, memang ada la yang bermasalah tahap gaban sekali pun, tak perlu la label macam tu kot. I swear that bila masuk degree, diploma students dapat banyak gila nak mampus discrimination. Not enough from students daripada platform degree lain, now from lecturers as well. Ibaratnya, you breakup dengan a loser guy, you kata semua lelaki tak guna. Ada seorang perempuan pura-pura cintakan you sebab nak duit you, you tuduh semua perempuan mata duitan. Can't you see that not everyone is the same? Kalau nak label pun... cakap lah, some of you in this class ada masalah attitude ke apa ke... Takpun datang la terus pada yang lambat tu, "kenapa awak lambat", "lain kali jangan buat lagi" or masa students bercakap lepas dah amek kertas jawapan "Senyap dulu" or "jangan bising"... tak ada pun, I rasa standard je kalau paper susah memang habis paper students akan bercakap, tapi cara dia label macam la kami tak pernah exam sekali dengan budak kelas asasi atau matrix? It's totally something normal... not something only budak diploma je tahu buat.
Ini tiba-tiba, SEMUA pelajar dari diploma FKK bermasalah. Coming from a lecturer yang tak pernah jumpa sebelum ni, tak pernah kenal, tak pernah ajar kami, of course it hurts. Thanks a million to my current lecturers yang tak pernah cuba label kami as one bila nampak any negativity amongst us. May Allah bless you.
Perhaps I shouldnt be writing about this. Nanti bertambah pula kata ada masalah attitude. But just know, that 3 semesters in degree, every semester, every year, students from diploma kena macam-macam discrimination. It wasn't big enough for us to care before sebab from students, but now, bila lecturer yang cakap macam tu, dia macam dah level lain, LOL
Dear, that lecturer, thank you sebab tegur kami ada masalah attitude. Kami akan cuba improve selepas ini. Kami akan datang exam awal 15-20 minit, kami akan ingat untuk cakap Thank You setiap kali nak bagi kertas jawapan kami, dan kami akan susun serta ikat kertas jawapan kami dengan laju dan padu. Kami juga berjanji tidak akan berkata-kata langsung setelah exam paper kami. Kami janji jadi pelajar yang tak ada masalah attitude selepas ni. Tapi boleh madam/miss janji takkan label student diploma lagi?
Sekian, nanti saya delete. Saya masih marah & terluka (ceh!) Saya tahu tak ada yang akan baca sampai habis pun... lol
